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So i want to take the chance to explain why i've created this blog. I want to be able to share with my friends and family the changes that will be taking place in my life and with my body. As I transition, i plan on making this blog my journal thru the whole process. A chance for those to check my progress and perhaps learn the answers to questions they might perhaps be to embarrassed to ask. So here's a brief history on me:

GROWING UP...
I was always a tomboy. If i ever had to wear a dress, i would be crying in it. I was a kid hiding behind long tangled brown hair and big baggy clothes. Hiding from what? I had amazing friends and a great family. Since the age of 5 i've struggled with gender idenity confusion. I was certain i was born as the wrong gender and as a young girl i would cry at night wishing that i would just wake up as a boy. But I knew that would never happen.
WHO AM I?
That was one of the hardest questions i had to answer. At 16 I finally came out as a lesbian. And for several years that seemed to be what fit. I was happy and accepted by my family and friends and most important myself. But soon i began to feel lost. I became severely depressed and distant from everything. I stopped going to lesbian bars because i didn't fit in. I didn't see myself as a lesbian. So i made a choice, I was going to figure out the answer to that question i was always struggling with. I'd often think of my childhood and knew this was something i needed to explore. I want to point out that the hardest plight for me in this situation was how to live life through transitioning. What was i to do about work? friends? family? or even strangers?
THE NEW ME
About six months ago I finally make the decision to take the path towards transitioning. Though it wasn't an easy conclusion, it feels like a huge weigh has been lifted off my shoulders. It's hard to explain exactly in words. But i'm so happy that i am now living my life as me and that i no longer have to pretend to be something im not. Which brings up my name change. With this transformation comes a new name. And though my given name will be changed to Michel, I have given you the background of the new life of Liam.