Turkey Talk!

So thanksgiving is just around the corner, so here's my lastest update! I've set my papers into the court to get my name legally changed. My court date is dec. 30 so it's just in time for the new year, and a new me! I've been feeling pretty well lately, but there still this lingering feel of self-digust in myself. And i think alot has to do with that i'm still in this "inbetween" presence physically. When i look in the mirror i can still see a lot of feminity still remains in my face yet the rest of my body is very masculine. And i know im my worst critic but i feel that everyone is perseving me as the way i do. Anyway, as for work, i've been temp. Moved to the sawmill store till the first of the year. I think this will be a good change.
More updates to come soon!

Six months approaching...

Ok, so I thought I get a head start on my six months marker. Last month was pretty uneventful. I've been swamped with work and haven't had much freetime. And overall the physical changes taking place over the last month have been small and slow changes. So now down to business...
First off work has been crazy and theres been so many days where i just want walk out. Which made me decide to postpone discussing my transitioning with my other employees. I believe that the people I've told so far are the ones that are important and worth trusting. So if I have to wait until I'm walking into work with a full beard before telling the rest who don't know, i will. Ha, but I doubt it will come to that.
Now to what's new with my transitioning; not a whole lot. Yeah, it's boring news but not much has changed from the last update. Here's the few things that are different...
I'm growing my dark hair on my arms and it's now growing on my knuckles. I have so much hair on my stomach it's crazy! My legs are covered in hair, including my thighs. Unfortunatly not much is going on with my facial hair. I wish i was growing more at this point but it's still only a small patch on my chin. I normally shave everyday just cause at this point it's growing back in by the next morning. But next week I'll be off work for a week of vacation (to travel down to mississippi) and this will give me a chance to see how much will grow in a week. Anyway, i think that sums everything up. Until next time...

Four Months!

Ok, so heres my new update. Its been four months since I started my T shots and a lot has changed since the beginning back in Feb. Im a lot more confident in myself and more confident that i'll soon be able to pass as a man. It seems everyday at work i am referred to as a guy from a customer. I have come out to one more of my coworkers. I think customers are realizing that my voice changing is not from a cold but they still are lost for answers.
There are a couple new physical changes that i've noticed over the past couple weeks. Im starting to grow hair on my stomach. Just a small line of thick hair growing down from the bellybutton. Slowly more hair is growing on my arms and around the wrists. But the hair still remains fine and has yet to grow in coarser. The facial hair on my chin is coming in thicker and darker but is still growing sporatically. That about wraps it up. Until next time....

News of the new!

Ok, lots of things to cover. Im finally doing my shots at home. I've done two shots so far here at home and no problems with it. I have my three months on testosterone update coming up May 4TH! So a couple things im dealing with right now; i am so sick of people asking me if i have a cold (because my voice has deepened so much). I mean after dealing with being asked the same question for over a month it gets harder to play along with it. And more recently im starting to have customers call me "sir". Its nice to know im starting to pass. Which brings me to the work situation. Im probably going to come out at work soon. Its really getting to the point were i cant continue portraying myself as female, not only physically but emotionally. Ive had some slight changes from the last update. Im still continuing to workout to build up more muscle mass. I feel like i've lost a little weight especially around my hips; which are just now starting to go away. Ha. But most exciting im starting to grow facial hair! Most of its on my chin and a little on the neck. Its coming in blonde and only a little more coarser than peachfuzz. Im also assuming changes are going to be happening more quick and become more noticable. I say this because i no longer get a period. Which then should mean my estrogen levels are lowering. I guess i'll just have to wait and see! Till the next update...

Catching Up...

Ok so I haven't done my best to keep my blog update. Life has been a bit crazy around here. I've been stressed with work because my boss is out of town and I've been stuck running the place by myself. Which is leaving me super exhausted by the time i get home. Which is why it's been so hard to find time to sit down and work on my blog. But at last, I found time today. So now for the updates!

*First off I went to the doctor yesterday to get my 4th shot of T. I was also written my prescription so now i can finally do the injections at home. I will continue to be on .5cc every two weeks.
*Second... My voice is getting a lot deeper. Everyone at work thinks I have a cold. And i just play along with that. It just really sucks when my voice cracks at work. I feel like a 12 year old boy going through puberty!
*Lastly, Not much has changed from the previous shot two weeks ago. I'm still continuing to gain muscle mass. I put on 10lbs in less then a month. Right now i'm at 146...which i've never weighed more than 130 in the past so this is taking some time to get used to.
I stopped shaving my face for three days now and i can definitely tell that i have some serious peach fuzz coming in for sideburns.
So once more prominent changes happen i probably wont be updating every two weeks. So until then or any other great and exciting news comes up...I'll blog you later!

2nd Shot: 3 weeks on T.

So i got my 2ND shot last Tue, which would have been Feb 23. My first shot was just 50 ml and this past shot it was increased to 100 ml of T. I am doing really well at giving myself the shot. I feel more confident that i will be capable of doing this at home. I have began to notice some physical changes taking place. For instance:

*Increase in overall muscle mass
*Losing weight around my hips, but yet gain weight in my belly section. i call it my man gut!
*Darkening of the hair on my arms and legs
*New hair growth on my hands and knuckles. Also some peach fuzz on my upper arms and neck.
*Significant decrease in breast size
*Increased sex drive and also aggression

The other side...

I've noticed that with the stronger dose of T that it is taking its toll on my body this time. The two days after my shot were hell. It felt like every muscle in my body was in a constant contraction. I was exhaust from the previous night of not being able to sleep. Even the muscles in my face and jaw were tensing up. And as much as I wanted to cry from the pain, i couldn't. The only reaction my mind was focused on was wanting to punch something. It was a rough two days. But it seemed to subside by day three and felt more like myself again.
Next shot is in 2 weeks and i will be increase to 200ml.