Many new updates!

So first on my update; I've found a doctor who will accept me as a trans patient! I've set up my first appt. Feb 4 and hopefully will be starting my hormones then. I am beyond ready for this and cannot wait to start T.
Second, i am going to start video blogging to keep record of my voice change and facial features changing, And i'll be putting up some before and after photos that will document the changes happening month by month.
I also want to discuss in this blog some of the challenges i've already encountered:

*I still have yet to tell some of my friends about my transitioning. And even though everyone how i've told so far is accepting there is still apart of me that is afraid to tell my remaining friends. First for fear of rejection, and second for losing a friend i care about. But i know this process is rolling a long sooner that expected and I don't want to hurt someone for leaving them out of the loop.

*I realized today that eventually i'm going to have to start using the men's restroom in public! I'm a neat freak and whenever i have to fix something in the men's restroom at work i feel dirty as soon as i walk in there! This is definitely a challenge i'm just going to have to get use to.

*Finally i think the biggest challenge I am facing right now is trying to convince my girlfriend that i'm not going to turn into some muscle head jerk of a man to where she doesn't recognize me anymore. Yes my face will change, my voice with change, and im sure my outlook on life will change, but that doesn't mean i'm going to completely forget myself.

Happy New Year!!

So it's a little late on the celebration. A part of that has to do with the fact that the wi-fi i was picking up before has suddenly dissapeared. And now i have to resort to picking up a signal in the far corner of my kitchen that just barely makes a single bar on my reader. Anyway, it's strange but it works for now. On another note, I have new neighbors! Haven't met them yet, but hopefully they are nice. I guess we'll see. So if you recall i did have my last therapy session not too long ago, i think dec. 30. Which I left with great news! My therapist and I have both agreed that i am ready for hormones. Now, if only this was as easy as I thought. Cause now I have to deal with try to find a doctor that is considered an "in network" provider, and one that is comfortable with administering hormones to people transition. Which is where i am in this process. So hopefully I have luck. Right now I have a doctor that will work under my insurance but is not accepting new patients right now. So my therapist is trying to work her magic to get me in. I'm crossing my fingers!
That's it for now :)