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So i want to take the chance to explain why i've created this blog. I want to be able to share with my friends and family the changes that will be taking place in my life and with my body. As I transition, i plan on making this blog my journal thru the whole process. A chance for those to check my progress and perhaps learn the answers to questions they might perhaps be to embarrassed to ask. So here's a brief history on me:

GROWING UP...
I was always a tomboy. If i ever had to wear a dress, i would be crying in it. I was a kid hiding behind long tangled brown hair and big baggy clothes. Hiding from what? I had amazing friends and a great family. Since the age of 5 i've struggled with gender idenity confusion. I was certain i was born as the wrong gender and as a young girl i would cry at night wishing that i would just wake up as a boy. But I knew that would never happen.
WHO AM I?
That was one of the hardest questions i had to answer. At 16 I finally came out as a lesbian. And for several years that seemed to be what fit. I was happy and accepted by my family and friends and most important myself. But soon i began to feel lost. I became severely depressed and distant from everything. I stopped going to lesbian bars because i didn't fit in. I didn't see myself as a lesbian. So i made a choice, I was going to figure out the answer to that question i was always struggling with. I'd often think of my childhood and knew this was something i needed to explore. I want to point out that the hardest plight for me in this situation was how to live life through transitioning. What was i to do about work? friends? family? or even strangers?
THE NEW ME
About six months ago I finally make the decision to take the path towards transitioning. Though it wasn't an easy conclusion, it feels like a huge weigh has been lifted off my shoulders. It's hard to explain exactly in words. But i'm so happy that i am now living my life as me and that i no longer have to pretend to be something im not. Which brings up my name change. With this transformation comes a new name. And though my given name will be changed to Michel, I have given you the background of the new life of Liam.

Merry Christmas!!

It's Christmas Day! and I'm creating my first post, finally. I have 5 more days until my second visit with my therapist and I'm hoping to get some good news. I'm hoping that with the new year I'll be starting my hormones. I've also been relocated at work to the downtown location. Which is what i was hoping. Anyway, that's all the news i have today. Merry Christmas everyone :)